Certainly God is awesome. He is doing a work in my life and I am glad. Our fellowship is calling for a fast in January. I've been asking God, "what should I fast from?" Not that fasting is one of my favorite things, but if He wants me to fast, then I am willing.
The thing is, I want to be the person He created me to be. Sometimes I have felt like a hypocrite. I've felt like a stepchild, a baby Christian after all these years of church going and serving, and sometimes I have even felt like giving up. Will I ever be able to be good enough?
Well, I don't think I will ever be good enough, but Jesus saved me by His sacrifice and His blood on the cross. God loves me, but that doesn't mean I want to stay like I am. I'm glad He loves me, but I also want to love Him and be what he made me for... for His pleasure.
Thank you Father, and merry Christmas to You. Thank you for Your gift.